Saturday, July 25, 2009
Nothing To Report?
I have been enjoying these last few weeks of summer and living it up here in the valley. Peace is SUCH a great feeling.
There will be some fun pictures coming as of NEXT weekend...but as for now...I am headed to the pool.
"...and then, I lived Happily Ever After." - me.
Friday, July 17, 2009
I Miss You- Incubus
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Ready To Run
It is always best to say what you need to say. Sometimes we have to make ourselves a bit vulnerable and wear our hearts on our sleeves to accomplish great things in love. ♥ As scary as it may be...
I love to work out. In fact, I love the way my muscles ache after an intense trip to the gym. Normally I get going on the treadmill at a level 7 which is a pretty fast run. I then do a high incline jog for the last 5-10 minutes and lower the incline back down to zero to cool down.
I have been into working-out and running since I was a fetus. My mom teases me that I kick-boxed inside of her tummy and ran everywhere I went the moment my feet hit the floor on my own.
So basically...the moment my little brain gained a knowledge of this whole "walking" thing...I was trying to figure out how to run.
Time and time again people are telling me to slow down, take a breath, take a seat, stop analyzing, stop thinking, start sleeping. It isn't until this last year that I have begun to listen.
The idea of running didn't just appeal to me in the physical manner. I somehow gained the unhealthy ability to escape situations that I wasn't comfortable in by bailing out. If someone was hurting me, not being nice to me, lying to me, or not being true to themselves...I couldn't handle it and I would either take 10 steps back...or run for the hills.
As a teenager this method works for the most part. (Right??)
It works until it becomes a habit, and for me, it did.
This habit has worked to my advantage in recent years. I have been in relationships where years and years go by...and I can't seem to break things off. Some relationships, on the other hand, needed to be walked, if not run, away from and I was able to do it with out shedding a tear. (Okay...maybe a few.)
I know there has to be a point to all of this. Why the kick boxing fetus? Why the faith? Why the ability to separate emotions from trials to overcome the worst of odds?
I have been given some kind of gift that falls under the theme of running. This gift can be useful at times but it can also be extremely...not useful.
What about when I do fall in love? Will I run away from the real thing? From the Prince Charming that God has in store for me?
My mom use to say, "Melinda...go run from that side of the yard to THAT side of the yard as FAST as you can!" During my job as a nanny I found myself saying the words, "K sweetie! Run from this side of the yard to that side! See if you can do it before I count to ten!!"
I realize...
I was one hyped up kid. (uhhh sorry Mom!) I have always had a lot of energy.
This year I decided to take all of that energy and direct it in the most positive ways possible.
One way has been to tell the people I love...that I love them. Also, to let them know why I love them. I know that my family and friends don't have time to read my forever long blog posts...but I would rather have it here for those who do have a moment to read so that they never have a doubt how much I think about them and love them to pieces.
I can't wait to have kids of my own, but first comes love...THEN comes marriage...and THEN comes the baby, right?
The main lesson I learned this year...is to stop running away from people and from situations.
As scary as that situation in Payson canyon was...I am SO proud of myself for not running down the canyon away from those men. I stood there...facing them, building up as much strength inside of me as I could and waited for the perfect moment to bold TOWARDS them and get in the car.
I feel like I am learning to face fear and strike hard. One hard hit.
So...how do I know that I have the strength inside of me to make that cartoon "POW" explosion where all darkness vanishes into thin air?
It is called... knowing God. I KNOW that he was there with me in Payson canyon whispering in my ear, "wait...wait...don't run away" as I faced them with the strength to potentially fight.
I suppose I need to have the same knowledge when I am doubting my relationships. (And current anxiety causing situations.) God is that big cartoon "BANG" that makes all of the bad things go away...or at least not seem so bad and scary.
Loosing loved ones, loss of income, death, and bad memories are some of the worries that keep me up at night.
What if I fall in love with someone...and then loose them?
What if I loose my job right now?
What if I were to have died...?
What if I hadn't...?
These are the moments where I typically run away. I disconnect.
Learning to lean on God and throw the "Bom" "Pow" "Poof" aka "FAITH" at these things is where I find solace and a lessened desire, no matter how tempted the little girl inside of me may be, to run and hide.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Thats What Friends Are For...
Saturday, July 11, 2009
A Night With Jon Schmidt
My piano tutor/friend Beau had two tickets to Jon Schmidt last night that he offered to my friend and I. What a wonderful experience this was for us. I have dreamed of attending a Jon Schmidt concert since I was 17 years old. He helps me get through tough homework assignments, writing blocks, emotional days, and his music inspires me to learn something new.
My friend Brian was the first person to introduce me to Jon's music. He could play "Waterfall" SO well!! I tried to learn the piano then...but never had the time to practice.
I made a goal this year to go to Germany, meet my family, and to begin piano lessons.
This is my 4th piano concert in 2 months...and I am officially mentally prepared to begin piano lessons in the fall.
I promise myself...that I will put my whole heart into learning the piano. I want to do this for the 8 year old girl inside of me who sat back and watched the missionaries teach my parents and one missionary would always play, "Right Here Waiting For You," by Bryan Adams, after the lessons.
I swore that I would marry someone just like that missionary...someone who could FEEL music...and become inspired through music as I am.
I am SO excited to begin lessons!!! Maybe someday I will put a YouTube video up of myself playing one of Jon's songs. My goal is to play "Waterfall" perfectly as some point in my life. :)
How about I set a goal right now with you guys...I will play Waterfall before my 30th birthday, from beginning to end.
Done deal!
Make sure and hold me to that!! I will be holding myself to that.
Make goals...and DO THEM!! Life is too short to wait for golden opportunities. We are the ones who hold the keys. We are the ones who have the control. If you want to learn the guitar...GO SIGN UP FOR LESSONS!! TODAY!!
If your goal is to be a great mom, wife, and friend...I admire this and strive for this over any other goal I have set for myself.
Say what you need to say, do what you need to do, and be what you have always wanted to be.
Just because.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Getting Summer Started...
The PG crew on the 4th of July. ^
^My...German tutor and I at DJ's homecoming.
I have been playing my guitar again!! ^
4th of JULY!!
Holy Jumping Jonas!!
My Favorite Highschool Band...SheDaisy.
Driving around w/ Shells. Grossest Slurpee's ever...
^Getting ready to go swimming...We haven't taken pictures together since we were about 17. ha.
Tanya got married!!! ^
Visiting Family
More of the PG crew pics...
My two favorite kiddos on the 4th of July. :)
mmmm. Summer has officially begun. We are still getting a little rain here and there, which is ODD for July...but we will take all the moisture we can get!! Summer 2009 has been one to remember for sure!
Monday, July 6, 2009
Dear God, Thanks For The Lemonade.
For happy ever after
'Cause nobody knows what's coming
So why not take a chance on loving
Come on, pour the glass and tempt me
Either half-full or half-empty
'Cause if it all comes down to flavor
The glass is tipping in my favor
Life gave me lemonade and I can't imagine why
Born on a sunny day, beneath a tangerine sky
I live life without pretending
I'm a sucker for happy endings
Thanks for the lemonade
Thanks for the lemonade!
Now take your time to answer me
For the beauty of romancing
Is to calm your trembling hand with mine
While begging love to fill your eyes
I can hardly breathe while waiting
To find out what your heart is saying
And as we're swirling in this flavor
The world is tilting in our favor
Life gave me lemonade and I can't imagine why
Born on a sunny day, beneath a tangerine sky
I live life without pretending
I'm a sucker for happy endings
Thanks for the lemonade
Thanks for the lemonade!
I've got it made
Rest in the shade
And hold my love
While God above
Stirs with a spoon
We share the moon
Smile at the bees
More sugar please
He really loves us after all
We're gonna need another straw!
We're gonna need another straw!
Life gave me lemonade and I can't imagine why
Born on a sunny day, beneath a tangerine sky
I live life without pretending
I'm a sucker for happy endings
Thanks for the lemonade
Thanks for the lemonade!
What a cool song!! I have been served lemon after lemon in my life, yet somewhere along the way God threw in just enough sugar to create the sweetest lemonade I could have imagined.
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Remembering My Friend Craig Decker
Drowning victim's body found
By Jens Dana
Deseret News
PROVO — The three-day search for the body of a 25-year-old Brigham Young University student came to end Tuesday after the man's father was able to point rescuers in the right direction.
Around 9:43 a.m. Tuesday, a search and rescue helicopter passed over an area one mile south and one mile west of Utah State Park Marina and spotted the body of Craig Decker, of West Jordan, just as it floated to the surface, said Utah County Sheriff's Sgt. Spencer Cannon.
Decker, a BYU student majoring in bioengineering, was sailing on a 14-foot catamaran with his parents, Lyle and Marie Decker, Saturday evening when he stepped off the boat to recover an oar. Craig Decker disappeared into the 3-foot-high waves, and didn't resurface, Lyle Decker said.
Search and rescue crews from various departments searched a 4-square-wide mile area for Craig Decker's body, but to no avail. Then, Lyle Decker accompanied searchers on a boat Tuesday evening — around the same time of day his son disappeared, and he was able to lead them back to the general area where his son disappeared.
"Some things really gelled," he said.
Lyle Decker said he and his wife were in a frantic state of mind Saturday night after their son didn't resurface so they couldn't remember where their boat was when the tragedy happened.
"Memories, when you're in a crisis, get kind of in a jumble," he said.
After the helicopter spotted Craig Decker's body, which surfaced in the general area of the Saturday disappearance, it was pulled from the water and taken to the medical examiner for an autopsy, Cannon said. He also said authorities are still uncertain what caused Craig Decker to drown.
"There's no telling that now," he said.
Cannon said the Deckers expressed relief when their son was found.
"There were tears, but there wasn't a sense of despair," he said. "They've worked their way through it as well as any one I've ever seen."
Lyle Decker said his family appreciates the different agencies and volunteers who searched for their son. He also commended them for their efforts.
"We hope none of you have to endure a similar situation," he said. "But, if you do, you're in good hands."
Lyle Decker said his son was a determined young man who was fixed on living his life to the fullest after he lost his right hand when a Mexican firework exploded as he was holding it on New Year's Eve 2006. Craig Decker learned to adjust to life without a limb and posted several tutorials on YouTube, under the screen name "captaindanger384," teaching others how to type on a keyboard, tie shoelaces or open jars with one hand.
"Challenges make us stronger and better," Decker wrote on his YouTube profile. "With creativity and patience, we are capable of much more than we ever imagined."
Decker's sphere of influence reached farther than his parents imagined. Sean McHugh, 44, of Catasauqua, Pa. — a friend of Decker who inspired him to post instructional videos on YouTube — said he attended an Amputee Coalition of America convention a while ago, and several people talked to him about Decker's videos. They said they hoped to bring Decker out to a convention to speak to fellow amputee survivors.
"They were very impressed for how well he was doing," McHugh said.
Abe Niederhauser — a longtime friend — said Decker was an outstanding individual who was never down on life, even after he lost his hand in the accident.
"I was probably more devastated about it than he was," Niederhauser said.
Decker's sister, Emily, said her brother was an energetic individual who often did things just to show people he was still capable, such as driving a stick shift with his hook prosthetic.
Decker's girlfriend, Jenae Walker, said he drove a stick-shift car on the night of their first date. She also said he still liked to light off fireworks.
"He still thought they were cool," she smiled faintly.
The family is glad to have recovered the body, Lyle Decker said, but they don't like to think they've reached "closure."
"Our love continues," he said. "There's nothing to close. He's just visiting somewhere else for a while."
Check out Craig on YouTube. Craig was a great friend to us and I think about him often. We learned of Craig's dissapearance when we returned from a 4th of July camping trip last year. I remember falling onto my bed...unable to hold back my tears. "God, please let them find him!" I cried for a few hours. I was in complete shock. I had never had a close friend suddenly die like this before. One minute he was sitting with me in the break room at work talking about life, love, and the meaning behind it all...and the next...he is on the news as, "Missing BYU student." Craigs brother immediatly emailed me when they found his body. While driving around town I couldn't bare to look over at the lake while he was missing. I became obsessed with thoughts of, "I can go help, I want to find him. I'll go find him...he is okay, this is a mistake...not Craig."
I am still in disbelief that someone so great could be taken away from this earth with the snap of a finger. It really throws life into perspective.
Craig did it the right way. Optimism. He was always looking up...even after his hand was blown to shreds...he kept a smile on his face.
He never let me pass his side without a smile and warm hello, high five, or positive thought for the day.
http://www.youtube.com/captaindanger384
"Remember...you can do it, you just have to find a way" - Craig Decker
Name: Craig
All joking aside, I have learned some powerful lessons through that experience. (Surprisingly, most of them have very little to do with firework safety!) Although what occurred was tragic, I believe what I have learned has made me a better person and will continue to bless the lives of many people.
1. Don't buy fireworks in Mexico!
2. There are some things in life that we simply cannot control. (If I hadn't blown off my hand, some other poor sap would have!) It's okay. As we let go of those things quickly and completely, we become free.
3. "Men are that they might have joy"! Life is good. Laughter heals. Life is funny. There are funny things that happen every day even in the worst of situations. Bad days make good stories. There is a time to laugh and a time to cry. It's funny that laughter and tears come together so easily.
4. The atonement of Christ brings peace and healing "that surpass all understanding". We come to know ourselves and we come to know God through our trials. We are surrounded by miracles. When we trade self pity for humility, our eyes are opened to see them.
5. There is so much life to live! Why waste time worrying and stressing about inconsequential things? Spend time doing what matters most—the things that bring the most light and joy to life. Enjoy the ride.
6. Challenges make us stronger and better. With creativity and patience, we are capable of much more than we ever imagined. Our perspective determines our reality. (There is nothing that quite compares with the feeling of accomplishment gained from tying your shoes with one hand for the first time!)
7. We can always lift others, no matter how bad of a situation we are in. It is a divine gift. The only true and lasting joy comes from forgetting ourselves and helping those around us.
Hometown: West Jordan
Country: United States
Occupation: Student
Schools: BYU